The past few weeks have been no fun at all, brightened only by time spent with maccath.

( Cut for whining )

Well, I made it to the second week of the Anxiety Management Group. I found it hard to really get involved, but did speak a little. I have this big conflict going on in my mind. On the one hand I keep finding myself seeing this as something to just get through. That's a defence mechanism because going to it is stressful. But on the other hand ( Read more... )

The title very much sums up my mood to do with appointments right now ( Read more... )

Or at least I'm going to hate the next 8 of them ( Read more... )

I am once more considering volunteer work as a way to try to get used to interacting with people in a work environment once more.

Some of you may remember that I had The Plan last year when I first moved to Fleet, but, almost inevitably, failed to implement it due to anxiety issues. Now, as well as just not wanting to sit on my ass and continue ( Read more... )

So, I did head off to bed last night around 02h, soon enough to supposedly get 6 hours sleep before an 08h alarm to get up to go to the anxiety management group. I did feel sleepy at this point. Of course I couldn't drop off right away, but I'm sure it was no later than 03h when I did. It's not like I'd been feeling sleep deprived at all lately ( Read more... )

That's the 2nd week I've not managed to get to the anxiety management group. Just couldn't kick my ass into the shower early enough, despite waking up on time, due to that nasty shortness of breath feeling every time I thought about it ( Read more... )

Right, I'm off to my 3rd group Anxiety Management thingy, and after that off into London to perhaps catch a movie (or maybe just potter around a museum) followed by drinks with squirmelia and co. to see her off on her trip around the world.

I've been offered crash space so may well not be back until tomorrow.

So, I attended the second group therapy session yesterday. This was focused on the whole "anxious thoughts lead to physical symptoms, make you feel worse, leading to more anxious thoughts, repeat" cycle. There was also mention of relaxation techniques (we have some handouts ( Read more... )

I just realised I forgot to post an update after actually going to the group therapy thing on Tuesday ( Read more... )